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Every time this past week that I have thought about writing a post, I have been distracted by something else. Now I have a whole pile of topics to get through. So here we go with item number 1.
I got myself a girlfriend.
No, you didn't read that wrong. I am honestly not quite sure how it happened or where it is going, but for the time being at least I have found someone who just... fits. I have known Kris for going on four years now, having met her through the Pat Pack. During that time we have on several occasions gone together to movies, plays, and even the ballet. We even had a brief fling a while back that I totally screwed up (long story). So anyway, I asked her to come with me to my company holiday party and things have just kind of gone from there. She shares my taste in movies (and that alone is worth taking notice of -- there just ain't that many ladies out there who actually *want* to see movies like Dog Soldiers, Let Sleeping Corpses Lie, or Battle Royale). Beyond that, she is just an amazingly comfortable person for me to be with.
The real problem now, of course, is the minor detail that by the end of August I will have moved to absolutely the other end of the country. I have had several people to just relax and enjoy the present and not worry about the future for this relationship. As a matter of fact, Kris is one of those people. So I am trying to do just that. All the cards are out on the table, nobody is being deceived, so for the first time in years I am just going to have to enjoy myself with another person. What a living hell (he says, rolling his eyes). Seriously, I *do* worry about where it will all lead, but I try not to dwell on it. The way I see it one of three things will happen. One, things don't work out anyway and we break up before I ever get around to loading the moving truck. Two, August rolls around and we have a bittersweet goodbye, I move away, and we keep in touch online and maybe see each other now and then if I travel back home for a visit. Three, August rolls around and she sells her house and leaves all her friends and family to come with me to Florida. Frankly, no particular one of those options seems very likely on its own but for the life of me I can't see any other outcomes. Me not moving really isn't an option at this point, since I absolutely believe with every fiber of my being that the move is the best thing for Ben. I have to at least try it. So when I find myself dwelling on what that means for Kris and I, I force myself to move on to other thoughts and hope that the answer (whatever it may be) will become more clear as August approaches.
One thing I have never been particularly good at is just relaxing and enjoying something, so dammit this time I am just going to have to learn how to do it.
Looking back on this post, it doesn't really come across as being as happy as I really am. The fact is I just feel *right* when I am with her. It's not a fireworks and romantic violins kind of thing, just a general sense of wellbeing. Watching a movie with her snuggled up next to me; driving down a country road with her hand lightly brushing my kneecap or my shoulder; sitting around chit-chatting with other freinds with a comfortable ease together; -- it just all feels right and good.
So what can I say? Life is good. How cool is that?
I got myself a girlfriend.
No, you didn't read that wrong. I am honestly not quite sure how it happened or where it is going, but for the time being at least I have found someone who just... fits. I have known Kris for going on four years now, having met her through the Pat Pack. During that time we have on several occasions gone together to movies, plays, and even the ballet. We even had a brief fling a while back that I totally screwed up (long story). So anyway, I asked her to come with me to my company holiday party and things have just kind of gone from there. She shares my taste in movies (and that alone is worth taking notice of -- there just ain't that many ladies out there who actually *want* to see movies like Dog Soldiers, Let Sleeping Corpses Lie, or Battle Royale). Beyond that, she is just an amazingly comfortable person for me to be with.
The real problem now, of course, is the minor detail that by the end of August I will have moved to absolutely the other end of the country. I have had several people to just relax and enjoy the present and not worry about the future for this relationship. As a matter of fact, Kris is one of those people. So I am trying to do just that. All the cards are out on the table, nobody is being deceived, so for the first time in years I am just going to have to enjoy myself with another person. What a living hell (he says, rolling his eyes). Seriously, I *do* worry about where it will all lead, but I try not to dwell on it. The way I see it one of three things will happen. One, things don't work out anyway and we break up before I ever get around to loading the moving truck. Two, August rolls around and we have a bittersweet goodbye, I move away, and we keep in touch online and maybe see each other now and then if I travel back home for a visit. Three, August rolls around and she sells her house and leaves all her friends and family to come with me to Florida. Frankly, no particular one of those options seems very likely on its own but for the life of me I can't see any other outcomes. Me not moving really isn't an option at this point, since I absolutely believe with every fiber of my being that the move is the best thing for Ben. I have to at least try it. So when I find myself dwelling on what that means for Kris and I, I force myself to move on to other thoughts and hope that the answer (whatever it may be) will become more clear as August approaches.
One thing I have never been particularly good at is just relaxing and enjoying something, so dammit this time I am just going to have to learn how to do it.
Looking back on this post, it doesn't really come across as being as happy as I really am. The fact is I just feel *right* when I am with her. It's not a fireworks and romantic violins kind of thing, just a general sense of wellbeing. Watching a movie with her snuggled up next to me; driving down a country road with her hand lightly brushing my kneecap or my shoulder; sitting around chit-chatting with other freinds with a comfortable ease together; -- it just all feels right and good.
So what can I say? Life is good. How cool is that?
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Seriously, it couldn't have happened to a nicer guy. *hug* It'll all work out in the end... i have faith. :)
Now... when do i get to meet this woman??? :) She skipped X-mas breakfast, so i missed that chance. :)