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So, I had a couple people question whether I meant to make yesterday's post public. I had, but given the level of concern it raised I came to the conclusion that it was better to be a protected post, so now it is. As for work, here's where I am at:
I was raised in an alcoholic family. I don't say this to garner sympathy, as all things considered I think I had a pretty good childhood. Whatever crap happened in our family was pretty much garden variety family crap, nothing that was particularly damaging. I only bring it up because I spent a great deal of my early childhood in and around AA meetings while my mom got sober. On thing I heard over and over again growing up was the Serenity Prayer. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." That's a pretty good way to look at life, both empowering and sheltering at the same time. I have come to the conclusion that it is time to go back to that prayer, identify what I can change to make things better, and what things are beyond my power to change and thus stop worrying about them.
So thing one, work-wise I really have two options: quit, or get the job done. Anything in the middle ground is just pissing away energy. Who knows, I may yet quit if an appropriate situation presents itself. In the meantime, however, I need to focus all of my energy on accomplishing the task as best I can with the resources available to me. I have proven to myself that I am capable of delivering amazing results in the face of adversity, so that's just what I'll have to knuckle down and do. I just can't burn energy being pissed off about things beyond my control, it's killing me and destroying my family and I can't let that happen.
A brilliant military strategist once pointed out that there are only four ways to confront an obstacle: over, under, around, or through. Wasting time complaining about the obstacle doesn't solve the problem. So that's pretty much it. Until the day I quit (which may or may not happen, I have no idea right now) my only focus is to *be* focused. Remain calm in the storm, be a leaf on the wind (while trying to avoid the impalement at the end of that scene....), find the zen and the absurdity of the moment, and get the job done. Over, under, around, or through. Those are my available options.
I was raised in an alcoholic family. I don't say this to garner sympathy, as all things considered I think I had a pretty good childhood. Whatever crap happened in our family was pretty much garden variety family crap, nothing that was particularly damaging. I only bring it up because I spent a great deal of my early childhood in and around AA meetings while my mom got sober. On thing I heard over and over again growing up was the Serenity Prayer. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." That's a pretty good way to look at life, both empowering and sheltering at the same time. I have come to the conclusion that it is time to go back to that prayer, identify what I can change to make things better, and what things are beyond my power to change and thus stop worrying about them.
So thing one, work-wise I really have two options: quit, or get the job done. Anything in the middle ground is just pissing away energy. Who knows, I may yet quit if an appropriate situation presents itself. In the meantime, however, I need to focus all of my energy on accomplishing the task as best I can with the resources available to me. I have proven to myself that I am capable of delivering amazing results in the face of adversity, so that's just what I'll have to knuckle down and do. I just can't burn energy being pissed off about things beyond my control, it's killing me and destroying my family and I can't let that happen.
A brilliant military strategist once pointed out that there are only four ways to confront an obstacle: over, under, around, or through. Wasting time complaining about the obstacle doesn't solve the problem. So that's pretty much it. Until the day I quit (which may or may not happen, I have no idea right now) my only focus is to *be* focused. Remain calm in the storm, be a leaf on the wind (while trying to avoid the impalement at the end of that scene....), find the zen and the absurdity of the moment, and get the job done. Over, under, around, or through. Those are my available options.