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[lokheed]

I don't know what it is, but for the past week or so I have just felt particularly de-motivated at work.  It's not like a month or two ago where I was actively pissed off and frustrated, this is just an overall sensation of being nothing more than a tiny and fully replaceable cog in the wheel.  I used to feel like I was a driving force behind improving our application and making a real difference to end users.  Now I feel like I'm just a guy who writes a few dozen lines of code every day that any other monkey could write.  It's really not a nice feeling.  Unfortunately I just don't know what to do about it.  The Powers That Be have apparently decided that I am useful enough to keep around, but not so useful as to give any meaningful work to.  There's not a whole lot I can do to change that, and I have grown weary of trying.

So I guess I'll go write my dozen lines of boring code now.  Maybe something interesting will happen at lunch.

Comments

[wingedelf.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling. :-/

For what it's worth, here's how I see it:
Willie is the competent enough second guitarist in the band. He's got his limitations, but does what he does well enough.

Then there's Kurt. He thinks he's a rockstar.

Finally, there's you. You're the session musician who plays on the album- show you the sheet music and you can sit down with any instrument you play- and there are bunches of them- and lay down perfect tracks in a take or two.

Maybe the PTB don't value you as much as they should, but the people who actually do the work do.

[stannius.livejournal.com]

I've got some ennui too, but it's a simple matter of burnout from my last project combined with a crappy, unexciting yet difficult current project. Plus uncertainty about what my next project will be.